Moved

(Part I in a series of catching up)

Ah yes, i have moved.
Friday May 15th, i relocated to the Westside, downtown GR.
i'm living at the Stockbridge Boiler Room as an intern for a year-ish.
Learning to love, and serve, and be selfless and patient and confident and content.
Selfless, patient, confident, and content don't come too easily...
and yet
it feels good to be on my own...ish.
However, living in community brings its own challenges.
It will become like family in many ways
but still
this will never equal 23 years-
in the same house,
spending every day with the same 7 people,
having everything in common-
for the last 23 years.
i have a whole new set of personalities to learn,
i have trust to earn,
memories to make,
relationships to build,
and comfort to achieve.
this means new ways of communication.
it means learning things about myself that 7 people didn't notice for the last 23 years.
it means adjusting,
compromising,
trusting,
learning,
giving,
sacrificing
in a whole new way.
and i have had to answer this question,
"am i willing to go through the work and the struggles and the discomfort in order to grow and know Him more?"
i debated.
but the answer was not unclear.
my selfishness clouded it for about a year-
but in those rare moments of clarity and revelation, this answer is never more obvious.
so i'm here
and i'm supposed to be
and i can never question it.
and it becomes even more clear when i recognize the little blessings.
Charla singing her heart out in worship just a room away,
Jordan offering encouraging words and joy and a trip to the Farmers' Market,
Michael simply available- for good conversations and meals and laughing,
Daniel serving in whatever way possible and proving so faithful to God's Word and heart
and Tony, Jenn, Max, Lily, Bea, and Ezra just a yell away
(as Ez so passionately illustrated yesterday morning out the window as he voiced his desire to be without clothes, "Naka!")
and Dana and Chip and Phil and Allison and Ian and Naomi and James and Wendy and Bryan and Shyla and many more people that are around often...
So it is good.
and not because i'm happy (which i am)
and not because i have everything i need (close)
and not because i know exactly where my life is headed (no idea)
and not because i have everything i want (definitely lacking a few things here),
but because this is where i know i am supposed to be.