...

my heart hurts for n who i suspect is depressed. and overwhelmed.
you wouldn't know it because she keeps so busy and she doesn't exactly invite us in in this way.

my pride is frustrated because i see how my misplaced priorities reflect my selfishness.

this urgency is before my eyes, confronted by compete helplessness on my part. and they need to know, but i can't make them to understand...

but these things force me to turn my gaze from all of this what will pass away
and i have to look at Him